Monday, August 25, 2014

Bye Bye Baby.

I'm supposed to be studying right now but my heart and brain are still up the street at the elementary school. So why not blog instead?

I sit in a quiet house and drink coffee. 

By myself.

And I would enjoy it except I wish I was sitting about two miles away observing my youngest as he takes in kindergarten.

Mainstream Kindergarten.

He is a tough but good mix of excitement and anxiety.

I am just the anxiety.

It's hard to let your babies go out into the world without you. Obviously it is necessary, but it's hard.

And this one?

I want to put a protective bubble around him.

I want to say to each person he comes into contact with, "be gentle with this one." Please oh please be gentle. He has a heart that easily breaks and a spirit that is easily crushed. At five years old, he already verbalizes that he wishes he was someone else......someone without rashes, allergies, and a g-tube. He wishes he was someone who isn't afraid of the world. 

Oh baby boy who is not really a baby anymore - I love you just the way God made you!

Lest I make him seem weak; he's not. Believe me. Tag along to one of his gazillion doctor appointments and you'll see. Or just try to change his routine or ask him to wear a different pair of shoes than he was planning to wear and you'll see just how not weak he is....

But he sees his differences and he doesn't like them. 
And that's a lot for a five year old to take in and try to grasp.

So please, World. Just be gentle.

As for these two third and fourth graders who are almost the same height now?!

I pray the same thing I pray every year.

I pray for good friends, for them to be positive leaders, for them to rely on their God when they're having a tough day, and for them to learn and learn and learn so they can help pay their own way to college one day. ;)

Here we go, 2014/2015! 

Let's do this.


  1. Good friends, be a leader, rely on God and learn, learn, learn. AMEN!

  2. I feel my heart growing wildly today surrounding all my grandkids with extra love and protection in all their new endeavors. And I know a LOT of that is directed to that bubble you want to create (I'm with you on this!) for the sweetest little blonde headed Kindergartener to ever tackle all that he is tackling. I pray for my grands every morning and this morning as I read my devotion and called them by name I knew God knew EVERY need. Still.....that little human voice says "if only" and "what if" and "please remember", but our God is mighty and my grands will each become uniquely equipped in His sight! And that little human voice in me can't wait to hear how their day went!!