Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Worth the Wait

The post below was borrowed from another blogger who also borrowed it. The words are beautiful. As an adoptive parent, one of the hardest things was waiting. Waiting and wondering. When you're pregnant, you know (pretty much) the outcome will come along in (hopefully) nine months. You know when you will get to meet and hold your child, God willing. With adoption, there is a lot more uncertainty. You don't know when, who, or what your child is experiencing as you wait. Patience is hard. You pour hours upon hours of work and dedication into the process, and then sit back and wait. Friends and family have babies while you're still waiting. Our process took 15 months start to finish, and that is a short amount of time compared to most, but didn't feel short at the time. It's hard to remember while waiting, that across the world, there is another family waiting as well. Waiting and longing to make it work.

"Our wait is beautiful. We are waiting to say hello to our future. We are waiting with hope. Waiting with dreams of what will come and visions of family.

The families of our children are waiting to say goodbye. Waiting to kiss their cheek for a final time. To smell their sweet skin and whisper in their ears. They are waiting for loss. Loss that most of us will never have to bear.

And our children will wait too. They will wait for all that is known to return to them and yet it never will. They will wait to hear the whispers of those who love them again. Whispers that will not come.

If children are not lingering in care. If the agencies we use are acting with haste and due care, then we should be at peace. A decision has not had to be made to say goodbye. There will be one more day. One more kiss. One more moment.

I wish I could go back in time and sit next to the important people in my daughters’ lives and whisper in their ears. Just one more day. Give them one more day. Take your time. I will wait here as long as you ask me to."


Wednesday, December 16, 2009

The Art of Cutting

Now that I've gotten used to it, the hair cut doesn't seem so bad.
Yes, it's a LOT shorter than I wanted,
but she's still pretty dang cute. (Not that I'm biased or anything...)
The back still needs a little bit of work, but for right now, we're leaving it as is.

Now, onto more important topics: Household safety.
When your 3 year old asks for (children's) scissors during quiet time, the answer is obviously a resounding NO, right? I mean, what kind of mother lets him take scissors into his room, after making him swear that he will ONLY cut the paper from the art closet and nothing else?

In his mother's defense, his pre-school teacher did ask him to practice cutting more often at home. Mission accomplished! He practiced cutting and throwing scrap paper. It's like killing two birds with one stone.

Now they both get to practice cleaning. What an educational day we have had.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Five Little Froggies

Five frog cupcakes for the five year old.
She chose to go see The Princess and the Frog instead of have a birthday party.
Very cute movie.

See those cute pigtails in her hair? They're gone.
I butchered it.
She's been wanting a hair cut for awhile.
Todd and I like the pigtails and braids, but I finally gave in.

When I say they're gone, I mean they're gone.
What was supposed to be a cute little blunt cut turned into a very short cut with stacking to try and hide some mistakes and layers. When will I learn? While I am willing to take a small portion of the blame, the rest I lay on her. I mean how hard is it, at 5 years old, to sit still for (what should have taken 15 minutes) while your inexperienced hairdresser of a mother tries to cut your hair with two little boys running around at the same time? Seriously.

I would take a picture of the cut, but I'm afraid if I ask her to sit still again, she may shoot me.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

The card that never was....

I love Christmas. I love everything about Christmas.
One of my favorite things by far is getting the old fashioned, snail mail, Christmas cards. I love seeing people's children as they grow throughout the years and hearing about their lives. I personally don't ever write a Christmas letter, but I enjoy reading them.

Wouldn't it be brilliant though, if one year, people sent out a real card. What if, instead of telling of all their family successes, they told about their kids pooping in neighbor's yards, dumping sand on kids' heads, trying to drown one another in the pool or sound, and attacking bullies with toilet plungers. (All these incidents happened in either my or my husband's family growing up, but I won't reveal names in order to protect the privacy of us and our siblings). What if, instead of sending the one decent shot out of the 200 taken, we sent a picture of our "real" kids, in all their glory, during the photo shoot.

For example:
Here is our infamous "smoking a doobie" shot from 2006,

the "We refuse to sit/stand/pose or even look at the camera" of 2007

The "I can't believe their mother lets them near that vicious beast" shot of 2008

and finally, the "what the hell? I wanted a real candy cane!" shot of 2009

Did I send out any of these pictures. No. Should I? Maybe - they're quite funny to look at.

Did I send out a real Christmas letter this year? No.
Should I? Maybe. Tell me what you think of the following draft:

Dear family and friends,

2009 has been an exciting year for the Fischer family. We were blessed with another baby boy in January. Things went really well for the first two weeks until Rachel's milk dried up. Then, she plummeted into a severe bout of PPD. She could hardly function and wanted to run her car into a tree. She's much better now and tries to use her experience to help other women suffering from PPD.

At the same time of her depression, Owen started having some medical problems that caused him to vomit profusely before, after, and during every feeding. Our house now has "Owen stains" everywhere. His medical problems caused a lot of emotional and financial strain on the family, but we're coming out of it.

Emma Grace got the swine flu and lived to tell about it, even though she had to be escorted out the back door of the doctor's office. She also had some major issues with pooping and had to receive her first ever enema. It did not go well. She's doing much better with that.

Isaac is in this great phase of whining and crying uncontrollably when he's tired. It's not much fun to watch and/or listen to. We're working on it though. He also has a huge bump and scar on his head from falling out of the bed.

Todd enjoys his job, but between that and the kids, he is often exhausted and doesn't have time to get things done around the yard and house that he would like to do. Such is life.

Hope this letter finds you all doing as well as us.
Happy Holidays,
The Fischer Family

Disclaimer: Okay, I would never send out that card since it is highly negative and even though all those things are true, it is not how I choose to look at our lives in 2009. In actuality, those were just the trying parts of an altogether great year.

So, be looking for our "fake" Christmas card in the mail. You know, the card with the one decent photo I got amidst the 70 photos of the kids fighting over who got to sit in the green chair.

How did I finally get a decent shot?
Bribery. They'll do anything for fruit snacks.



Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Go Away

Dear nasty, crummy, disgustingly painful ear infection,

PLEASE go away with this third round of double antibiotics.
I want my Owen back.

Poor Little Lamb.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Happy 5th Birthday, Diva!

Okay, so the fifth of December is truly an exciting day in our family. 3 years ago on the 5th, we received our referral for Isaac. 5 years ago on the 5th, we headed to Duke for a scheduled induction. 27 hours and one c-section later, we met our Emma Grace on Dec. 6th.

Sweet, petite Emma Grace
6 lbs. 7 oz.
19 inches.
Hated eating.
Loved sleeping.
Tiny.

We had a bit of a rough start getting her to gain weight, but she's not failing to thrive now. She's a female/ first child through and through. You know the personality: stubborn, but fun, inquisitive, insightful, assertive, kind, loves all things pink, etc... She's definitely a rule follower. (This morning she told her teacher she couldn't have a cookie for snack because she would be having cupcakes later and that would be too much sugar...)

Here's my sweet little diva at her favorite restaurant where we had her birthday lunch. She's posing with Sydney Lea, her new Generation doll.

I can't believe she's five.

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Friday, December 4, 2009

Happy Referraliversary

If you don't live in the adoption world; you may be wondering what that title means.
If you do live in the world of adoption, then you know that it means today is the 3 year anniversary of our referral. (The day we found out about Isaac.)

Dec. 5th, 2006.
Started out like any other day.
My s-i-l needed to have a dress altered, and seeing as she had a newborn at the time, I volunteered to meet her at the mall and keep Will company while she was otherwise occupied. We were hoping for a referral within the next few months so I asked her if we could borrow Kenlee's "I'm a big sister" tee-shirt to use when the call came. I had no idea it would be that day!

After putting EG down for her quiet time, the phone rang and it was our social worker, Lindsay.
After 5 months of waiting, she said the famous words: "Do you have time to talk?" That means, THIS IS IT! in adoption lingo. The call. The one you've been waiting for. The one where I'm going to tell you about the child that is waiting for you half a world away. The call that will change your life forever.

It is physically impossible to describe what went through my head at that moment. I think I started blabbering on about some inconsequential things, until she laughingly interrupted me and asked if I wanted to hear about our son.

A son.
Our first boy.
Tadesse Mathewos
6 months old
8 pounds.
At the care center.
Waiting for us.
Half a world away.
A picture that took our breath away.
A history that is heartbreaking but led him to us.
Our little Isaac
Our big blessing.

I hung up, threw the shirt on EG, grabbed the already wrapped blue baby blanket, (returned the pink one later) and headed to Todd's office, praying he wouldn't check his email before we got there. Found him in the hall. Kept pointing to EG's shirt. He didn't get it. Had him open the gift; it dawned on him. We opened the email together. I told him everything Lindsay said. We looked at his picture for the first time together. People asked me what that was like. I can honestly say for both of us, within about five minutes, he went from being a cute little boy, to our son. Learned it doesn't take blood to make you fall in love with your child.

It took us about 4 minutes to decide on a name.
"Isaac" means laughter. This baby needed laughter and happiness in his life. If you know him now, you know the name fits him well. He has the greatest smile and sense of humor.

We left and headed to my s-i-l's house, who laughed and asked why Emma Grace was wearing the tee shirt already? Ironic huh? We called all of our parents, siblings,and friends. We printed out his picture, stared at it and celebrated.

It was by far one of the BEST days of my life.
And one of the most heartbreaking days of my life.
Our joy, our gain, our blessing came at another's loss.
My thoughts will forever be with his birth family, his first family.
Every day that I get to raise this amazing child,
I will remember them and be grateful.

THEN: EG with her "baby butter from Opapeaia"
NOW:
Thank you, God.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

O' Christmas Tree (sort of)

Todd won a major battle in our home last night. For 9 years we've battled it out over purchasing fake or real ones....(trees of course).

Last night, he purchased our first artificial tree. He didn't fall for the "let's get a real one and then we'll buy a fake one at the end of the season when they go on sale" line this year. In the past, he fell for it, and seeing as he never goes shopping after (or before) Christmas, I simply never purchased one and the argument ended until the following December.

Not this year.
He's getting much wiser.
My tricks don't work anymore.

So here we are. Decorating our first fake tree.
I will say this: not having needles all over the floor is nice.
I will also say this: I miss the smell.




O' Artificial Tree,
O' Artificial Tree,
How artificial are thy branches.
Thy needles will not cover my floor,
My baby will not choke on them,

But I miss the smell,
I miss the smell,
How artificial are thy branches.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Thanksgiving

11 adults
5 children
2 dogs
2 cats
2 turkeys
and 6 pies
=
1 yummy, fun, happy, rambunctious,
weight-gaining, dish washing, game playing, kids yelling,
dogs barking, beach walking, exciting Thanksgiving.




PS - We didn't make Owen wash all those dishes while he was taking a bath.
He only washed half of them...

Monday, November 23, 2009

Mowing Along

Saturday afternoon was quiet inside. The baby was sleeping, Todd was working in the yard, and the kids were outside playing with the neighbors.
Or so I thought....



How many years until we replace the plastic one with the real deal?

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

A Colorful Day

Remember when the kids were supposed to be cleaning their room while I gave Owen a bottle and instead they were "decorating" each other with markers?

Remember when I wanted to laugh, but had to punish them instead?

Remember when I wanted to take their picture but thought if I did, they would realize I found their actions somewhat humorous and decorate each other again?

Remember when Todd got home and had to feign disappointment as well, when I'm pretty sure he was tickled too?

Remember when Isaac freaked out at dinner because he got chicken on his shirt? The same shirt that was already COVERED in marker....

Yeah, I remember that. Today. That was a fun day.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Travel Companions

We've been busy.
Last weekend, we went to the OBX to hang with friends, run races, and visit grandparents. It was great fun and Owen got to meet his Great Nana for the first time.



As if that trip wasn't exciting enough, Todd took the older two camping this weekend. Now I know you're thinking, "lucky Rachel; she got to stay home and sleep in her own bed and play with the baby." And this was almost true. I did get to "sleep" in my own bed in between all the times I was up out of my own bed taking care of Owen who was sick with pink eye(s), a bad cold, and a double ear infection. Poor kid. There was not much playing to be done. Lots of crying though.We're headed back to the pediatrician tomorrow if the meds don't kick in soon.

Todd forgot the camera on the camping trip, so the picture below was taken after their return. The kids were filthy and needed a bath. This is what happened while they were waiting for said bath.

Tired?

Now, it's back to the same old, same old. Well, until Thanksgiving when we get to stuff ourselves silly with lots of family.

I just realized how that sounded. We'll be stuffing ourselves silly with food, while sitting at the table with family. I'll try not to eat any family.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

To Ethiopia, and Beyond...

Most days I think Isaac is really starting to "get it." He is at the stage now where he can explain to others where he was born. This is wonderful, because now we give him the option in public of whether or not he wants to share his personal story with the curious public. (I know this may sound strange to non-adoptive families as it once did to me, but after much research and discussion with other adoptive families, we really feel this is in Isaac's best interest.) We never want him to resent us for sharing his private life with strangers.

As a side note: there are two types of curious public.
Type 1. ) Those who are asking because they themselves are clearly interested in adoption. At this age, Isaac still gets to choose whether he wants to share where he is from, but I will delicately answer any other questions they may have about the adoption process, etc.
Type 2.) Those who are asking because they are merely curious as to why our family looks different. This situation is completely up to Isaac. I take my cues from him. Usually he just tells them where he was born, I don't add any information and we move on. There has only been one instance where he was too busy playing and didn't want to share. It was very hard, but I just smiled politely and we kept on doing what we were doing.

So far, he does not mind sharing and seems proud of his heritage. I pray that this continues, but also understand that the older he gets, the more annoyed he may get by the questions. That being said, we've also noticed the older he gets, the less attention we get in public. Interracial families are becoming more and more common. :) I also understand that once he enters school, he will be left to field many more questions/insecurities from his peers on his own. You have no idea how many times I've hit my knees praying for those future situations.

I love a good laugh, so next time we're approached in public, I really hope Isaac shares the information he relayed to me this morning while reading a book about a baby. He turned to me and said: "Mommy, remember when I was born in Opapia and you and Daddy brought your space ship to come pick me up?"

PS - He's obsessed with everything Buzz Lightyear right now.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Halloween.....

1 Happy Pumpkin +

1 Cute Witch +

1 SCARY Skeleton =

A fun, fun night resulting in lots of sweets.
PS - Owen wasn't such a huge fan, especially by the end....



Friday, October 30, 2009

Pro-Mama

I'm thinking about going professional. Seriously - this is my 3rd baby - I know it all now. Everything there is to know about parenting, I've got it. I should win awards.

How to tell when they're hungry? Mastered it.
How to get them sleeping through the night? Done.
Best calming techniques? You guessed it - I know 'em.
Best solution to teething? Been there, done that.
Diaper rash? Gone
Skin rash? Working on it, but it's going away.
Best way to avoid a tantrum? Got it. (though it varies for each child).
Best snacks? Already in the pantry.
How to potty train? Took a lot of error with first child, but 2 of the 3 are now fully trained, so not too bad.

I mean I really don't like to brag on myself, but seriously, I should be the next baby whisperer or something.

For example: Do you remember this post?

Bald and drooling....

Well, I was right. I knew what to look for, I saw the signs, and I diagnosed the problem. So congratulations Owen on your first tooth! FIVE months later...

Not many women can sense teething that far in advance...I have a gift. I'm going pro.

(Pictures of said tooth popping through the gums to be displayed at a later date. I don't want to wake him up to take his picture because that would contradict the whole sleeping through the night deal. )

PS - In case you don't know that I'm a highly sarcastic person, (in which case, we've obviously never met) clearly, I was being facetious. I'm on my 3rd kid and still don't know what the heck I'm doing.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Fashion Star

They say what's on the inside is all that really matters. I know that, really I do.
That's why I tried. I really did try to let her leave the house looking like this.
I mean, in the grand scheme of things, what's more important: her having self confidence and "artistic flare" or me wanting her to look cute at pre-school? I mean seriously...it's just a bunch of 4 year olds. For crying out loud, they don't care how she looks.

I did try. Promise.
I couldn't do it.

So, we compromised.
Compromise is good. It's a valuable lesson to learn.
The pink socks, twirly skirt, and purple hat weren't going, so we changed the shirt.
Compromise.
If compromising is such a valuable lesson, why do I feel guilty?
She wasn't hurting anything.

Aahhhh...mother's guilt. Does it ever end?

I asked her to put her hands on her hips and strike a pose.
I think (thank the Lord) we can cross off supermodel from future career choices.

Not to be outdone by big sis, here's "Spiderman". Don't even try to call him Isaac today.
He gets mad. Real mad.

Next time, I won't care. Promise. As long as everything's covered - I won't care.
I'll keep trying.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Busted

We try to keep certain doors in our house closed.
Sometimes we forget.

Uh-Oh. Somebody got busted.
You can't see it, but there was plenty more toilet paper pulled off the roll. These are just the two pieces he chose to play with/eat.

"Oh, come on Mom....don't be mad. Look at how stinkin' adorable I am."

"What? I came back in here to clean up. I promise."


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

State Fair Part II

Todd playing with his youngest son. I love these two pics. (and these two guys).


EG just found out that we're staying even later and letting them each pick one more ride. Think she was excited about the news?

Seriously, it should be illegal to be this cute.

We're home now. Everyone's in bed. Most of them are sleeping. Tomorrow....well, tomorrow I'm going to have 3 cranky, tired babies who have to get flu shots....But today, well today was pretty much awesome.

An afFAIR to remember....

Happy 9 month birthday Owen!
Boy, did we celebrate. (Pun definitely intended in title). We spent the afternoon and evening at the State Fair. We rode rides, gained weight, walked a lot, and had a pretty dang good time.

Both my little dare-devils wanted to try the roller coaster and loved it. You can't see Isaac's smile in the picture, but it was just as big as his sister's. They also loved the swings, ferris wheel, and spinning tea cups.

Owen's favorite part of the day was when he got to crawl around and eat grass. Can't get the kid to eat cheerios or stars, but he certainly downed some grass today...

A fun pic of our kids, a few of our teenage "kids", and of course, Mr. Potato Head.

To Be Continued....
(since I still can't figure out how to post more than 4 pics at a time. You'd think blogger would make this program more"blonde friendly," but they didn't. sigh.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

A Standing Ovation...

So the kids are really into performing plays right now.
Translation: she drops a shoe, he finds it, brings it to her, and they dance. (Cindarella...) Repeat above sequence as many times as possible before bedtime.

This picture was taken before the big event on Sunday night.
(Yes, they picked their own costumes. Yes, she really wanted her "prince" to be a fireman. No, he did not cave. He chose instead to wear red and green, with a necklace and boots....)

The prince waiting patiently for the shoe to drop.

Poor Cindarella dancing alone because the prince refused to dance with her.
The back-up prince was busy figuring out how to fully show his enthusiasm during the play.

Alas, the standing ovation. That's right - he's pulling up on anything and everything. And as you can see, he's quite proud of himself for it.